Becoming an entrepreneur wasn’t by choice- it was a gift from God that I had not learned to appreciate until recently.
I had a career. I had financial stability. I thought I was pretty important and a great Christian because I went on a mission trip once a year. Then, God stripped me of everything I identified with and slowly started showing me that none of these things were my doing, they were all His.
As an independent, get things done kind of person, my career came first, everything else had to fit into place. Then, on one of those mission trips, I met a boy and fell in love. (Something I never thought I would do.) Then after that- we moved to a small town in the Southeast, yet another thing I never thought I would do.
As I left my high-profile career I thought, surely God has something wonderful planned for me. I didn’t approach my new town with humility, I approached it with an air of, what can I do to elevate my influence here? That’s where all the learning began.
You see, God benched me for over a year. I had no career, no job interviews, nothing. I even applied at a doggie daycare where the only requirement was, “must love dogs” and was shocked that I, the girl who loves to rescue dogs, wasn’t even granted an interview.
As painful as this season was for me, I met an extraordinary group of women who loved me, encouraged me and believed in me- even when I didn’t reciprocate their kindness.
Then, through the quiet days, I poured myself into Bible studies and the Word. And suddenly, I started picking up contract work. Never did I think I would start my own business- and truth be told, I didn’t- God started a business and I’m just along for the ride.
True to my old ways, I was sure I was meant for more grandiose things and applied for glamorous jobs back in Washington, but the phone never rang. I was sure I wasn’t just supposed to be a consultant living a humble life in a town that I was still a stranger in.
A few short months after God started bringing new clients in the most unexpected ways to my business, I found out I was pregnant…with twins. It was then I started to appreciate the slower pace of life and understand the miracles that were occurring in me and around me. I had a flexible schedule so I could adjust for the countless doctor appointments, the days I didn’t feel well and the uncertainties the first few months of twins would bring.
As I’ve grown into motherhood and been continually blessed with the ability to work from home, I’ve started to realize something…living a quiet life, where His provision is noted every time an invoice is paid, is quite remarkable. It hasn’t been easy, my pride still rears its ugly head and then it takes one baby getting sick to quickly become humbled and realize what is and isn’t important.
I’ve also made a decision to take two months off this summer to spend more time going on adventures with my girls. You see, pretty quickly I became the mom with twins who still maintained a business and said yes to every volunteer commitment that came my way. And then I also became the mom who was becoming so stressed out I couldn’t see God in the mundane anymore.
As scary as it has been, I’ve made the decision to take a pause and spend time storing up memories with my twin toddlers. And you know what, the most amazing thing has happened. I’ve started to see and hear God again. In the small things really, but it’s amazing how when you have the time to pay attention to Him it changes your day.
His business He has brought me will always be there- but I’m pretty sure by being obedient to what He has called me to do in this season will be the best investment I have ever made.